Initial Reaction (It took 36 hours)

And now what…. I got some paper from this place and I am supposed to care, well yeah I do care, quite a bit, cus that cop is being filmed no where near where anything relevant to your camera’s presence occurred, its stocked film bullshit, show your aging correspondent
The gunman HAD to walk past the place where I learned about the west’s imperial eye,
4 of them were from my area now
from NJ
They all walked and yelled and drank where I drank
And went to the cascades and so what if this doesn’t matter that I am not there and wish I were
Why
Why not

And be angry
and just anguish and tremble and and and and
It’s a record we need to know that cus it might be somehow more tragic if we had fallen just short of that too. The communal HOKIE experience of … whatever we invented wireless technology and about a billion other things that I'd like to take credit for but merely take pride in, like one of those souls taken off the earth the BIOCHEM-ENGINEER prof who was like top 5 in the world. Don't we all just lose huge there. If that was a lone incident in 5000 miles away that'd be bad enough, but I can visualize that guy and the other brilliant people our university employs and the students too clearly for this to be real, yet.
To many whys and nothing retorts.
even the shabby alums such as myself take pride in
And this person, living creature of the same God walked on the same steps where I plead for peace the day the war began, and my best friend proposed to his wife and, where I met a dear person to read a book next to and shared meals there and
There’s just no resolution to this conflict, it just ends and we are heavy with emptiness.